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  • Hazards After Dark

    by Hillery Stone

    If you’re going to break a hole in the wall
    you’ve got to do it soon. The mouse has left its trail
    on the table along the woodgrain
    where it roved all night, corpulent and dimple-backed
    as a yam. There isn’t much to be found
    but you’ve sealed every crack in the house and now
    it can't get out. So unlike a mouse
    the exterminator says, circling the room.
    He takes out his rubber cement
    and lies down by the radiator. There was a time
    before this house, miles of world
    and not a thing of it yours. There were years
    you ruined everything good
    because the outcome was incalculable.
    Now you remind yourself about the shortened life span
    of an animal in captivity.
    You nose around for hazards after dark—
    faint odor, electric hum. Not a particular organism
    or object in a specified circumstance
    but the unseeable. The stealth design. Now
    they’re getting closer. They’re closing in. The whole place
    has shrunk to the size of your table, smooth
    as a map, ringed with secrets of our genes
    and ancient climate. When you can’t find your body
    it will be there at the end, posed
    for equanimity, signing interminable forms.
    Remembering the tastes of the outside.

  • How It Began

    by Hillery Stone

    Alone in the San Juan mountains I scaled the dark,
    feeling in the sandstone and the snow
    and the metal along the rails of the aerial lifts the hands
    of my prospector, their pursuit
    and girth, I’d loved them for seven years and felt them
    only twice, but I could conjure them like a hymn,
    like the sounds during childbirth invoked
    to counter pain. In the mineral belt, on the volcanic field,
    I heard every directive from the Earth’s stage:
    thou shalt not keep
    any messages; thou shalt not save
    a single call. Inside, a new story shook
    into being. Like Scheherazade who pulled her yarn of tales
    long after dusk, hours after sex transfixed
    her body and lay it out
    for death. But death kept not coming, instead
    a strange root began to grow between her
    and the murderous king, at first
    grotesque, then useful, then unequivocally desired.

Poet's Statement: I was preoccupied for a while by a persistent mouse that stalked my apartment. I tried various live-capture traps. Sometimes I'd see its shadow. I thought about the particular dread of invasion, which has its own category in the biology of fear, and how, in pursuing each other each night, the mouse and I became intimates.

Looking at these poems together, I see that both carry the threat of death. One that night after night does not come.

Bio: Hillery Stone's poems and essays have appeared in Prairie Schooner, Gulf Coast, Shenandoah, Green Mountains Review, Electric Literature and on the Academy of American Poets site, poets.org. She has been the recipient of a Gulf Coast Poetry Prize and was a finalist for the Adrienne Rich Prize from Beloit Journal. She lives in Brooklyn.